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lost in my own mindtoo many files running in the backgroundunclosedburning my drive to processcovering the capable memoryexhausting & burning outa thought should indeed have a masslike the matter of our surroundingbut it's just impossible to focushow many lies are running in the backgroundhow many files remain unclosedif I İf I could only seemy skin is shivering the painhard to unclose harder to readhardest to knowI keep denyingthat this is the truth I didn't seethis is the truth I can live withyou can't blow out the candle twiceflame is just gone& the wish just vibratedmy wish for the truth has burned me outI regret none of itstillthe cleanse is never enoughalways moretoo much to carrytoo much for them to knowwhat you see isn't depthyet you choose the path of shallow & never see that

you scream for the continuity of life

I wish I'd watched you from afar

it's too painful to seemore painful to knowpainfullest to move forwardsomehow