I Know You Don’t See Me.

Unprocessed whateverness I keep talking aboutI lost countIt started in the mighty dark forest I called you outAll I cared was the tone of your voice to pull my pieces apartWe looked for a bench just like years ago and we ended up in the abandoned cabin A different youNot long after we swiped into the role of rings and I wanted outYou would compromise and it would solve most of my problemsIf only you saw me.It feels like a dream nowYou telling me about a rat, me feeling the rain and you running inside outThe cringest bowling and you picking me upWaking up next to you reverse bent on the kitchen You could have given me everything you thought I wantedYou were willing to learn a language I never felt was mine

I was the first to voice it off and you didn't want area grey You helped settle me into my new place The frustration of an unknown land you left me moments to remember Our music was the exact opposite and you loved sitcoms while I lived for thrillersA future with you would have meant a family just not the type I would want After you no one left a markUntil the next accidental blondeThe unexplored soulmateshipEverything that I am He sounded like everything Before his fuck up ceremonyWe had sushiHe entangled the beautiful complications of my mind Focusing per detail, never giving upUs processing things crazy fast, cringey eating and master card no passMe letting you fall asleep so you wouldn't leave It all feels like a parallel realityUs swinging, sharing pretzels like it's another

Tuesday and that cinnamon heaven Singing and being afraidThen kissing for the one last timeNot knowing it's a goodbyeHow can you kiss your sounded soulmate goodbyeNow I have no idea where you areFast forwarding to a brunette His mind atomically blessedThe way he thinks and all thatI see him on a street not realising He has this frequency He is unexpected everythingFace of unexplored adventures and his mindOpens a new angle I never laid my sight He promises I won't fuck it upMe knowing how it will turn out not long after he disappears into the dark I'm still open and vulnerable But we talk out and about He leaves me unanswered everytime he's scared We start by taking things off one piece at a time and he ends up on my chest Me half restrained

We start talking about how it all went sidewaysAnd we share a lotI see his pain and no one before me saw it out loudThen I am on my way homeThis lunch table I see a guyWe flirt our way to the endHe switches to smiles Raising his glass eventually 2-3 tables away next to a woman Flushed and frustrated I find my way into the bathroom Drawing a make out scene and he doesn't come outHe leaves the dining room when he finishesThen comes back laterAfter skipping a friend I take him to my room Get what I want and this one He helps me draw my way homeLittle does he know, I'm being picked up later by a testosterone After some runs and delays I make it past all the securities in 10 minsWith my t-shirt saying home

After my rebound with die pretzel you find me out of the subway Under the rainCarry my luggage all the way homeThe most scary intimacyThe most tense and sensualThe first and ever matureWe share art and you don't want to share meYet the worst thingI know you don't see me