Cosmopolitanism.

I've switched back and forth between minus and plus this morningWalked over the dirt of the cosmopolitanismLooked at the store signs that said closedHad a good look while everything was silentThat naïve face I remembered How could it be every morning I stopped by I wonderedNaivety vibrates I see a little childSubway making some distance nowAll kinds of faces insideReminds me of you The life I could only dream of before I met youAnd that melody in my ears nowThe moment I knew I was an outsider The moment I knew I never belonged here I remember ever sinceI looked and looked at the faces Always a stranger to a city I was born inKnowing how to get by Knowing my way around Then going up to some touristic place No one knows me and I once again see

I never belonged Then I start writing my stories for the faces of strangersNo one knows me I'm at times White as fluorescent light And at timesDark as the most sacred timePast midnightWatching the dots make their wayAll there is we have are representationsTwo by two we get byI guess I'll keep doing this When I have everythingBeing a stranger No one knows youThe eyes are emptyYou can watch them from afarMy beautiful morning coffee brushing up my elbows in my favourite sweatshirtKnowing exactly belongRemembering the smellLike the toy trainsClicking the button on my own

No one assumes I'll get off in the next stopThe boy sits to the person next to meSome more crowd fills in the placeI keep thinking about trainsRemembering the time I sang the loudestThinking it was a goodbyeReturning shortly afterKnowing that in the whole world I never belonged anywhere elseThat feeling That feeling for I wanderedHe lets his women come first he saysWhat is the difference when he attributes it to his supposed manhoodPrecedent is the blissI love it when my mind burns from the crowdAnd I can let out my complexityJust like I screamed at you last night Saying my brain couldn't take more of your simplicityAnd it all started when I called you a work of artNo one did you saidYou started asking serious questionsI avoided them for a while

You told me it wasn't a product When I stopped answering It always was I said Listing down every bits and pieces of my revelationsRemembering the decade old war I had won I've celebrated my victory before youJust after receiving the bad news It was worth cherishing And meanwhile he stayed silent Maybe he would understand I thought Of the damage he put me throughI'm ruthless now when it comes to youLosing the empathy component was a bitch Then I let my demons out I let them out on you For a decade they had fought for youThen the last time after what you said Recognising the how is just but an illusionI would take upon the surgeryIf I was his last chanceI'm the one you fought so hard to beAnd we went into an ever-lasting seamlessly bruising war

I knew you wouldn't understand my frequencies I wouldn't have locked the door if I wanted you in Remembering the time I was applauded in the subwayNot long agoSomething you chose to avoid that grew inside meI screamed and it took 30 seconds for the entire line to burst into silenceWith every cell I had, I loved itI lived for itMy vulnerabilities carving their echo Had no fear I closed my eyes and let it all out Opened with the most amazing soundThe crowdThey recognised The strangers offered their gratitudeNo one I have ever seen And they appreciated what I was like an art piece I felt the sweetest taste of bloodShielding myself with my own frequency

Sheltering myself in my own pleasure caveImmersing anyone who comes nearby Freezing them in timeAwaiting the last 3 stops nowFeeling as the day is done and is midnightOverestimating right from the startWhat can I say I'm cognitively distortedWhat an oxymoron when they don't tell the world about the undistortedDeserted Skinshed The open minded you You were afraid when you saw me like that I knew you were a fraud back then Last night I signed my confessionOf how I were mistaken thinking you could be the oneThen I sealed it tight With the brightest lightListening to the drums go bySaying my requiems and here's the long expected goodbye Ready to raise from my seat nowSeems I really have made it

Excitedly awaiting our next flight Made with passionJust like I amFelt the adrenaline Looking at the doors Waiting for that little blue dot to make it thereShape of my heart begins Sting rising in my ears Surrounded by a crowd In my mind appears fractionsFractions of my greatest yearningStep by step i'm going homeHave I told youEverytime I start something new A new series this isTo confront what's anewTo wash it all with cold water After I shed my skinAnd it really is strange DolaresWhat once bruised you with endless painIs now reckless wild adrenaline driven pleasure